Anguish

Nothing is going to bring him back, so no, talking will not change that.

However, if her office gives you a place to vent and explore your feelings and emotions, then continue seeing her. I know I’m not ready to talk to anyone…

In time, the pain will not be so raw and your grief will not overwhelm you as often. That awful feeling that you can’t breathe and your chest is being crushed won’t be as frequent. The inability to move, work, think, will fade and you’ll find that you are able to focus and not stare into space or at your desktop with your mind and body both numb and in an extraordinary amount of pain.

It’s not going to change overnight or tomorrow or even next week. I don’t know when the change will come. I just pray every day that somehow we will through each moment and living will not be so hard.